Whoever said senior year is easy was obviously lying. This past month, in particular, has been especially tough on me. Last Thursday, after months of waiting, I was finally notified that I was not a recipient of the prestigious Gates Millennium Scholarship. Was I disappointed? Of course. I poured my heart and soul into the required eight essays, forcing myself to pull all-nighters in order to perfect my application. I desired this scholarship more than anything else in the world, and for good reasons - as a scholar, the burden of paying for college would be completely eliminated. But, again, despite how much I wanted this, I was not chosen. Seeing the thin envelope in my dad's car, I quietly told my dad that I was not selected. He quickly comforted me, and reminded me that disappointments are inevitable.
Although I was not selected as a Gates Millennium Scholar, I just want to thank everyone for all of the support and encouragement you have provided me. I was heartbroken, yes, but I have come to understand that this does not define me nor my accomplishments. I am honored and lucky to have even made it this far - being selected as a finalist out of 52,000 applicants. Congratulations to those selected as part of the 2014 cohort! I am so incredibly happy for all of you, especially after seeing all of your "selfies" and posts :) You are all so deserving of this scholarship. I know many of you have had to overcome many adversities in your lives, so I am very glad that Gates will open up numerous opportunities for the lot of you.
Although I was not selected as a Gates Millennium Scholar, I just want to thank everyone for all of the support and encouragement you have provided me. I was heartbroken, yes, but I have come to understand that this does not define me nor my accomplishments. I am honored and lucky to have even made it this far - being selected as a finalist out of 52,000 applicants. Congratulations to those selected as part of the 2014 cohort! I am so incredibly happy for all of you, especially after seeing all of your "selfies" and posts :) You are all so deserving of this scholarship. I know many of you have had to overcome many adversities in your lives, so I am very glad that Gates will open up numerous opportunities for the lot of you.
To my fellow non-recipients - whether for Gates, NSLI-Y, or anything else - please know that rejection and failure does not signify the end of the world. Paying for college may come as a bit of a struggle now, but it's merely a minor setback. Achieving your PhD, MBA, etc is entirely possible if you continue to work hard. I know you are all capable of this, because I have seen the resiliency, optimism,and humility that you have all displayed in the face of this disappointment. As for me, I have already started working towards my own goals. I wish you all the very best in life, and to my fellow Gates applicants, I wish you the very best in your college endeavors :)
Before I end my post, I would just like to give a big thanks to NSLI-Y, American Councils, and the US Department of State. This is long overdue, but I just wanted to say that I am very grateful to have received the opportunity to travel to Hangzhou last summer. I have made incredible life-long friends while I was there, and it is because of my experiences with NSLI-Y that I have been able to remain resilient in the face of failure and rejection. To those embarking on their own NSLI-Y journeys this year - especially those going to Hangzhou - I hope you are all ready for the greatest experiences of your lives :) And last but not least, here is my final NSLI-Y post. One year after starting this blog, I am finally ending this amazing journey :)
Sunday (August 11)
Before I end my post, I would just like to give a big thanks to NSLI-Y, American Councils, and the US Department of State. This is long overdue, but I just wanted to say that I am very grateful to have received the opportunity to travel to Hangzhou last summer. I have made incredible life-long friends while I was there, and it is because of my experiences with NSLI-Y that I have been able to remain resilient in the face of failure and rejection. To those embarking on their own NSLI-Y journeys this year - especially those going to Hangzhou - I hope you are all ready for the greatest experiences of your lives :) And last but not least, here is my final NSLI-Y post. One year after starting this blog, I am finally ending this amazing journey :)
Sunday (August 11)
Final day in Hangzhou, and I was a complete mess. From the moment I arrived in front of the school, I started crying like a baby. Luckily, I wasn't the only one feeling all somber - Alex, Michelle, Nancy, and Sander were sobbing with me too.
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| Our host families waving goodbye to us |
Boarding the bus, we called Sander and my host sister one last time before we had to turn in our NSLI-Y phones. I think Sander was still crying, because he sounded really sniffly and sad over the phone ;__; The ride back to Shanghai was about 3 hours, and then we boarded a 13-hour flight back to Chicago. When we reached Chicago, I cried again. Because I was the only one staying overnight in Chicago (everyone else had a connecting flight), I had to say goodbye to everyone within minutes of passing customs. Goodbyes have never been easy for me.
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| Can you tell I cried? |
Until Next Time,
Christine
